We're still here and you're still there

Dear AJ,
I'm so sorry I haven't written in such a long while. Daddy and I think about you and talk about you everyday. I know that's not an excuse for not writing to my big boy, but please know we haven't stopped thinking about you.
The truth is we really thought we were going to make our way to you in November and be home by Christmas. It's not looking like that is going to happen anymore. We're still hopeful that if God wants us to you next month, it will happen- no problem. We are prayerfully leaning on that, but if that isn't God's will for our family, then so be it.
The transition that is occuring within the SDA has really thrown a wrench in getting you home. Their suspension of issuing invites to meet with them  until further notice is heartbreaking to us. We really truly thought seeing our dossier arrive in your country- was our ticket to you- we were home free. Just pack and go. Why isn't it working out that way? And I am so so very sorry Love, that we have no way of making anything change ourselves. Please believe us, when we say if we could get you home today, we would.
Sometimes I'm at complete peace with all that's going on in our wait to come to you and rest that this is all a part of His awesome plan for our family. Other times, I fall to pieces and wonder if I made you up. That's when you seem so far away. We continue to fall more and more in love with you and the thought of you. You don't even know we exist. I suppose that will make our first time getting to love on you face to face that much sweeter.
It's 4:21AM where you are Darling Little One. Have a few more good dreams.
We love you to the moon and back.
Mommy, Daddy, and Big Brother A
For our readers- Please pray for our friends Matt and Tammy Preston. Their sweet little love, Nathanael, who they have had in their hearts to adopt from the same country as AJ has been thrown into a heartbreaking situation. Pray for God's will for all involved. Pray for hearts to be softened. Pray for protection for Nathanael. Pray for comfort and sustaining grace for our friends.